It happened. That thing you hoped wouldn’t. You know, that thing you had no control of.
In writing and in life, I keep coming back to this theme: We are not in control.
Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
First the tears fall down your cheeks. Tiny pools of sorrow dampen the floor.
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me
There was nothing more you could do. You did your part. You did all you could. The rest is up to God. You still believe God, don’t you? Yes? Good. Then there is no problem here.
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Still, it’s not fair! Your spirit rebels. I’ve got this, my child. It’s not right. You cry out because you’re hurting. I’ve got this. Let it go. Do you trust me?
So you cry. You cry until you feel dry. There are no more words left to say. This was never about you and what you wanted. It falls under the category Higher Purposes. My ways are higher than your ways you recall. My thoughts are higher than your thoughts.
Truth seeps in. Doubts sit down for a while. Cracks of light break through your tears given sufficient time to fall. Your heart fell into darkness momentarily, but the light is slipping in and the dark is being forced to flee.
Images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
I’m not sure I understand this at all God. You don’t have to. You just have to let go and trust me.
Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as
they make their way across the universe
I can’t think this one through. I can’t find the reason to this one question: Why?
You don’t have to have all the answers if you trust in Me.
Fine then. I’m trusting You! I’m stepping out in faith. I’m leaving the comfort of my sorrows.
Choose to be joyful. Be grateful. Be a light to others.
Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe
Several increments of time later: You’re right. I think I’m going to make it. Even with scars, I’m going to be okay.
Indeed you will my child; indeed you will.
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Nothing’s gonna change my world
Something’s gonna change my world
Lyrics to “Across the Universe” (center text) – The Beatles
There’s crack in everything; that’s how the light get in. – Leonard Cohen
“Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light.” – Madeleine L’Engle
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